Hi! My name is Bonnie Pedersen, and I am writing to you not as a doctor or therapist, but as your spiritual sister who knows the heart-piercing pain of depression intimately and personally. For years, I just couldn’t break the devastating cycle of depression. The “dark cloud” would suck the life out of me month after month after month, followed by a period of “normal” functioning. All the while, I could sense the storm brewing inside.
I studied the work of every self-help author out there from Wayne Dyer to Marianne Williamson to Stephen Covey, Eckart Tolle and Deepak Chopra. I love them all, and drew great comfort from them! But… sooner or later, all my hard work trying to be better seemed to be just a senseless, painful waste. I remember looking at my life, feeling like a complete failure, and telling myself repeatedly “I am nothing but a cancerous tumor to my friends and family and they would be so much better without me poisoning their lives.” In fact, if it weren’t for a sacred secret I guarded inside and a special angel named James (yes, my precious son) I would not be here writing to you today.
Just when it seemed like I had climbed the mountain and defeated the “hideous beast within” I would crash and burn. In June of 2001, I was living in Maui, with a successful career (I had just earned over $10,000 in May!), a healthy size 5 figure, and I was a new bride to the most handsome, conscious, successful, altruistic man I had ever met! Less than a year after celebrating our vows under a full moon on the beach, I was homeless, jobless, husbandless, and living on the streets in Southern California! To add insult to injury, I was sued by my own sister on National TV! Yes ladies, I was ripped to shreds publicly by the merciless Judge Judy and my own SISTER at a point when I thought my life couldn’t get any worse! (although it was traumatic at the time, yes my friend, I am laughing today 
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Then, one dark day I cried out loud in desperation to God “Please Stop this PAIN!” It was then and there, through the tears streaming down my face, I felt the calming message arise from the depth of my heart: “You must know this pain, for it is the pain of those you are here to serve!”
My sacred secret became my passion. My inspiration was not for myself (my choice would have been release from this physical existence). You see, my heart just couldn’t bear the thought that even one other person on this planet could be feeling the PAIN that plagued me through all these years!
From that day forward I have dedicated my every breath to pin-pointing the exact formula, the precise map, to transport the most hopeless, self-loathing, out-of-control depressed woman into a happy, healthy, successful, energetically-aligned goddess living a life of passion, purpose and prosperity.
